Hey. Today, I wanted to write a post, that could actually in some way, serve a purpose to somebodies life. I really want to start writing some influential, and advice posts, so if any of you want me to talk about anything specific, let me know in the, "Contact Me" Tab. So anyway, today...
I decided that I was going to write about self confidence, self esteem, and overall just loving yourself, whether it be with acceptance, or change. I thought that was appropriate. As many of you may know, I have never been the most confident person, or a person who personally loves my body, etc. I always thought I was too fat, too ugly, and kind of in a way worthless. No matter what anyone says, affection from others, especially your peers can play a huge role, on your confidence scale rate. I was always shown tons of love for who I was from my family aka my grandmother and father(mostly), but was never paid much attention by my peers. It hurt me, because I started feeling all of those things about myself, that I listed above. -- Over the past year, I have had a lot of time to myself, to think about who I was, what I loved, and who I wanted to be. In that time, I also, had tons of time to focus on the negatives of my body, and life. I have to say, that although I have went through some downfalls in the past year, it has to be one of the best years of my life. Finally being able to become comfortable with who I am, is the best thing EVER! I spent a lot of time to myself, to analyze myself, and my life. Over time, I started to go down a list, of the positives, and negatives. Of course, the positives outweighed the negatives, but I still... Was not happy. I decided that it was time for me to either except my faults, or change them. As I went down my list, I started to figure out what I was going to except, and what I was going to change. The change started with overall view point of my self, and my life. I, for a long time, felt as if I wasn't being true to myself. I felt as though I had to become a different person to keep the security I needed. I acted like I was tough, nothing phased me, and like I didn't care about anything. I listened to music that I didn't even like. A lot of people may be reading this and saying I was trying to fit in, or be a follower, but it was more of me (in my mind) trying to be more normal. No matter what I had ever done, I was always a stand out. Whether it was the way I acted, the bullying I experience, etc. I ALWAYS WAS DIFFERENT, and as good as it is to be different (as I realize now), it definitely was devastating to me at the time, because I felt as though the whole world was against me. This year, I realized in my opinion who I really am. I've realized the music I actually love, the activities I actually love to participate in, the things about myself that makes me different than others that I love, and overall just what kind of person I am. I also changed my view point, of life. I really realized that sometimes you can't take things too seriously. Sometimes you have to learn to brush off stupid things. I started to realize as I changed my stand point of life, that respecting myself played a key role in how I felt about myself, and how others felt about me, as well. People feed off the energy you give them. If you walk around with tons of respect, and love for yourself, others will treat you the same way. If you give off negative vibes, that's the way you will be treated. With the change of those things, I continued onto my list, for more things I felt I could change. Next, comes weight. No matter how secure I've become with who I am as a person, I still struggle to except my weight. I currently, am on my weight lost journey, which is only helping to boost my confidence even more. -- I truly wrote this and shared my story, because I wanted people to realize how happy, and how secure you become with yourself, and the individual you have become, just by excepting your differences. You don't have to live by other peoples wishes, its your life, and you only have one time to live it. Do what you want to do, be who you want to be. "You were born an original, don't die a copy!" Express your differences, flaunt your differences, and LOVE your differences. If there is something you can't be comfortable with no matter how hard you try, you can change it, but make sure you are changing it for all the right reasons! -- If you want to talk more about this topic, want personal advice, etc. please feel free to use the Contact Me Tab. Let me know what you guys think in the comments!
Love ya,
Aaron
Love ya,
Aaron